Monday, December 26, 2011

it doesn't hurt if everybody knows my name tonight

 Want to know whats so frustrating??

I just keep having dreams

That all of these guys are home

And then I wake up.

And they aren't.

And it makes me soooo mad!!!
Because it always takes me a few minutes to figure out if they really are home or not.
And then I'm bummed out.
Because I miss them.
And I want them to be home.

But want to know what is so great?
Collin comes home February 8 2012

Doug comes home April 16 2012

James comes home August 2012

Cass comes home June 20 2012. 

I. Am. So. Excited.

Thats six weeks until  the first one comes home.
thats only 2 more fast sundays!

And then they all are so close after that!! 

so stoked.

so so so so so stoked.

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Doesn't it look like a beautiful night? All the kiddos sleeping snugly in bed, the house quiet and to myself. And end the evening with a nice big cup of hot chocolate. :)

HA! Yeah right. This kids are FINALLY in bed a solid 2 hours past their bedtimes. And for the sake of honesty, Bert isn't even in bed. She's on the couch. There was a point in the evening that I locked myself in the kitchen. My nieces and nephews are awesome! But they are in no way light weights.

I'm never having children. The hot chocolate was nice though.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

lights fill the streets spreading so much cheer.

I don't know if you knew or not, its not a secret or anything but apparently some people just don't know; but I don't have a husband.

I don't even have a boyfriend.

I don't even have someone that is like almost a boyfriend.

I don't even have someone that I'm like texting all the time.

Lets be real, I don't even have someone that I'm interested in.

Shocker. I know.

However. If I did have a husband.
a boyfriend,
an almost boyfriend,
a boy that i was texting all of the time,
or even someone I was interested in,

I would totally be doing the 12 dates of christmas.
I have seen about a bazillion people doing it.
And its darling
just darling.

And I even know what my 12 dates would be.

Fine I'll tell you.

On the first date of christmas: We'd decorate a christmas tree. I mean full on decorate. And sip hot chocolate while listening to this:

On the second date of christmas: We'd make soup and watch the grinch. The cartoon and the jim carry version. We'd probably make Annie find a date and come too.

On the third date of christmas: We'd decorate gingerbread houses. Each decorate our own, and make Brinley judge them.  I'd definitely win.

On the fourth date of Christmas: We'd be productive, and get together to wrap presents. Just him and I, chatting and wrapping gifts for friends and families. Drinking wassail the whole time.

On the fifth date of christmas: We'd go eat somewhere in the riverwoods. Afterwards we'd enjoy the outdoor fires and walk around looking at the lights.  And possibly taking stupid pictures with the bear outside of Rocky Mountain Chocolate factory.

On the sixth date of christmas: We'd stay home, light a fire, and watch White Christmas in our sweats.  Drinking hot chocolate and eating popcorn.

On the seventh date of christmas: I'd make him drive me up to Salt Lake, and we'd check out the lights at temple square and the lights at the Zoo. Then We'd head to the Pie to defrost and stuff ourself with way too much pizza.

On the eight date of christmas:  We'd lay on the couch enjoying homemade cinnamon rolls and each others company. And quite possibly Charlie Brown Christmas.

On the ninth date of christmas:  I would drag him sledding.  And in the likely event that there was no snow, I'd make him go ice blocking with me.
Because thats awesome.

On the tenth date of christmas:  We would decorate sugar cookies. There would be tons of sprinkles and frosting involved. It would probably get messy. And at the end of the night we'd leave them on neighbors porches and run away.

On the eleventh date of christmas: We'd go listen to the lights in orem.  He would be kind enough to way in the hour long line to get into the neighborhood. And then nice enough to act like it was the coolest thing he'd ever seen. Because it is.

And finally, on the twelfth date of christmas: We'd go to my family Christmas Eve party, and he would love the matching hooded onesie I got him to wear.

And it would be the greatest december ever!
but alas.
I'm single.


There is just one thing I need

Tis the season!!

I love the holidays. I just do.
And I don't just love Christmas and thanksgiving.
I love every holiday.
Sometimes I even make up holidays.

Like chubs appreciation day

Or be nice to Cassidy Day.

But I super duper love the big holidays. From about November 1st to January 2nd I mean.

Everything is a little better around November and December.

True story.

This Holiday season I decided to milk it for all it's worth. I am celebrating every holiday I can google.

And I think you should all join me.

Because its awesome.


Now who is going to make a gingerbread house with me, take me to see the lights, and go sledding with me?

Monday, December 12, 2011

because we found love.

I admit it. I'm addicted to pinterest. But not as bad as some people.


I love quotes.  
I really am one of those dorks that could spend a whole day searching for that one amazing quote.
Then I will post it all over my door. 
or all over my wall.
or scribble it in notebooks
on homework assignments
on the back of my brain
across napkins at restaurants
and on other people's whiteboards 
for weeks on end. Or until I find a new quote. 

Lately this has been my quote of obsession.

I sometimes stumble over my words. I don't get my point across verbally as I would like to.
I would hope that even if I'm not the best at TELLING you how much I care, I am the best at SHOWING you. I hope that even if I'm not the best at Telling someone what I think is right and wrong, I am the best at showing them by leading by example.

And most of all, I hope that when I do tell someone "I love you", "I'm here for you", "I want to help" that my actions reflect that, and not argue that.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

do you remember all of the times we had

one day left and heck week is over!
two days until dancesport!
nine days until mal comes hooome!!

Today I am Grateful for

Photo by Lizzy Jean Photography. 
She's the best!

(Brett not pictured but I love him too)

Oh wait, There's more!

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

then its alright with me

I don't wanna go learn to be a PCT tomorrow.
My girl Meg is going to have to wake me up and drag me.
Kicking and Screaming.

Today I am Grateful for:

My sweet cute Florida Girls.
These four beauties are my cousin Jess' girls.
They live in florida. :(
But they come to visit at least once a year.
I used to baby sit them when they were teenies.
But now Tana is taller than me and they are all much too old.
But I still love them and they love me!!
I am grateful that
Tana texts me almost once a week!
Kenne texts me too now that she has a phone.
Tater e mails, and ash just looks cute when she gets here :)
These girls are some of the best girls you will sweetest girls you'll ever meet.
I miss them terribly.
But every time I hear from them,
They make my day.

oh, and I love dustin and jess :)

Monday, November 7, 2011

do you have a dolla for me?

Today i am Grateful for

my stethoscope too. but even more so than that

My Job.
Besides the fact that I am blessed to even have a job in these crappy economic times,
I am pretty sure I have the best job in the world.
I get to play with babies all day.
I get to see life begin.
I get to work with some amazing crazy old ladies.
And I get to make a difference in people's lives. 
I am so Grateful for my Mom/Baby unit.

even though I am getting ready for day 4 of 6 consecutive days.
and no one has made me food. :(

Sunday, November 6, 2011

I gave my heart on the morning of november 6th.

I'm feeling a bit burned out after 6 hours of being a door guard. 

Today I am Grateful for 

I know this is kind of lame because I posted about music once already. 
But I am so grateful for music.
It lets me live out my emotion in entirely unexpected ways.
It connects me to some of my Best girls.
And it lets everyone escape for just a moment.

Its November Sixth.

Friday, November 4, 2011

its not about the money money money

heads up. i work for the next six days. 
thats right.
six consecutive days.
its gonna be a bummer.
make me food?

Today I am Grateful for

Favorite picture ever.
Jensen Nicholle Astle. 
I'm grateful for her every day. Even though I feel like I never see her anymore.  She is the type of friend that has your back for anything. Even if you haven't seen her for awhile. Even if you make bad decisions. She is so great because she is the girl that calls you for the strangest reasons. I love her.

Oh. I also love her because she makes my hair look like this.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

you want it. you got it. you want it.

Today I am Grateful for

My green and gray blanket.
Bennett made it for me.
And I am grateful for it because it generally means the end of the day. And I get to go to bed.

Night Turkeys.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

i go stupid love like cupid

I am in the eternally long battle of cleaning my room. 
And I suck at it. 
I go through stages where it is spotless for months!
Then all of the sudden it looks like a bad episode of hoarders. 


Today I am Grateful For

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Ice Cream. 
Not only ice cream of the Ben and Jerry's variety (even though that ice cream will always hold a special place in my heart, and will always taste the best, and mean the most) but all kinds of ice cream.  Ice cream seems to be a solid family staple in our family, whether it be farr's fresh with the family, my mama's homemade vanilla, or of course Ben and Jerry's. Ice cream is something my family can always agree on. An for that reason, I'm grateful for ice cream.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

shorty with you.

'Tis the season to be grateful

The "November Challenge" of listing something you are grateful for each day. I have a lot to be grateful for. I thought I better hop on board.

Today I am grateful for:

Yep. I'm grateful for Justin Bieber's new album.
Not only because I love christmas and I love christmas music, but working in retail in malls that play the same 12 track christmas CD all season has ruined so much of it for me. I love that so many artists have come out with holiday albums so I can mix it up a bit.

But the real reason I am grateful for "under the mistletoe" is because today as Nicole and I were driving around with Brinley in the back seat, listening to this CD, Brinley was hardcore rocking out to "drummer boy" and "mistletoe". And it was awesome. 

so. Today I am grateful for Bieber's Holiday spirit. 

Sunday, October 2, 2011

with all my heart I'm sure


Every year as October gets closer I always find myself replaying the events of that day over and over in my head.  It runs like a movie.   I remember ballroom class every detail of that day.  Every detail starting with ballroom class. I can't remember anything that happened before ballroom class.

I remember it was Simone Healey who brought in the note to check Cam and I out of school.
I remember hearing Cam's words "it will all be okay" as we walked down the stairs from the studio.
I remember seeing my mom standing in her scrubs by the attendance office as we crossed the commons.
I remember stepping into the "1" and seeing Shane next to my mom. 
I remember my heart skipping a beat because thats when I knew something was wrong.
And I remember the way each word sounded as it came out of her mouth.
"Kids, your dad is gone."

That was, the longest week of my life.  Everything was happening and I didn't understand, or refused to understand most of it.  I remember it being a week of immense pain and sorrow, but so many blessings. I look back now and see that even though he left his body, he had to have been with us the whole time. I see the ways that he comforted us in that awful time.  And i still see the ways he watches over us now.

Every year since he has passed, there have been so many incredible things that have happened around the anniversary and this year has been no different.

 A few weeks ago at swiss days I ordered a necklace.  The lady who ran the booth told me that they had been overwhelmed by the popularity of the booth and because of that my order would take at least six weeks to get to me.  They told me they would ship my necklace and I should expect it around October 14.  I hadn't really thought about my necklace since I ordered it. So it was quite to my surprise friday afternoon when i saw a small package addressed to me in the mailbox. 

Sure enough, I had received my necklace two weeks early.
The necklace is perfect, everything I had wanted and exactly what I needed.

My next little miracle came in my favorite blonde form.

The evening of my dad's death my whole family came over to my house. Keep in mind my dad was the oldest of seven children.  I was standing on my front lawn being greeted by my aunts and uncles with hugs that were just a little too long when mallory came up to me.  All she said was "come on we're going on a walk."  Mal and I walked for a good two hours. She talked, and I sobbed. Even when it got dark and started to rain, we still walked.  My favorite thing in the world about Mallory is that she can just talk. Talk about everything, and talk about nothing all at the same time. And even when her words are completely unrelated to whatever I am going through, she makes me feel better.


Mallory has been in India for the past two months. Our chats have been temporarily reduced to long e mails and well timed facebook messages.  But on Saturday morning at 7:15am I received a call from an unknown number, and sure enough it was my Mallory. Our conversation was short and sweet. And the second she hung up I started crying. Just because it was exactly what I needed. She carries this magic in her voice, that is bound to make any one around her feel better. And by around her I mean, half way around the world.  I have no idea if Mallory realized what this weekend was or not, but either way, I'm glad she called.

And my most important miracle was provided to me by not only my Biological father, but My Heavenly Father. 

With help from these two dorks.

Friday evening Melissa called me and asked if I would like to go to the saturday afternoon session of General conference with her and The Bradster. I of course jumped at the opportunity, and at the time, I didn't even realize how important to me it would be.  Sitting in that conference center Saturday afternoon, and feeling the spirit so strongly, and knowing that even though its been a while, my dad is just down the street and around the corner, makes this all so much easier.  I am so grateful for my knowledge of the gospel, and for my knowledge that I am sealed for all eternity to my parents, and that I will see my dad again.  For now he is just watching from above.

"The people who don't see the most, see that I believe in ghosts. If that makes me crazy than I am, because I believe. Oh I believe."

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

7 AM the usual morning lineup

This week has been a gem so far. 
And its only tuesday.

Sunday I worked with some awesome ladies. And then came home just in time to play with Bennett and eat the most awesome cake Bennett/ Buddy from cake boss prepared. FROM SCRATCH! it had layers!!

Monday I went to lunch with my favorite crazy old ladies.  Olive garden is always delish.
Then off to a double header for the Provo Bulldogs! Lost the first game by a point. Won the second game by nine points. 

Tanden took Bert under his wing to make sure she was training to be the best corner in preschool.
working on her best defense face.

Bert decided that a few short innings just wasn't enough time with her dear Aunt Heatherlynn, So she came home with me for a sleepover. It was an exciting night of visiting Bennett some more, delivering a secret package to Jordyn, and finishing up with the JB movie.

She's seriously the greatest. I'm not sure if I was watching after her, or she was watching after me?

"Aunt Heatherlynn, do you want some little snacks to just munch on during the movie?"
uh sure. thanks brin. wait am I the 20 year old or are you?

"you know what? I love watching Jacob take his shirt off."-Brinley Age 4
(referring to taylor lautner as jacob black)

Tuesday morning we (by we I mean brinley) woke up early! We called the parents and checked in with the parents and then went to eat breakfast at village inn.  Something to the effect of her poking her head out the bathroom door and announcing to the restaurant
 "Hey Heatherlynn, I need some help in here.."
Yep, I'm coming right in Bert.

Oh. And now after not enough sleep last night and chasing after/entertaining a 4 going on 34 year old girl, I feel a little like this...

Did I mention I FINALLY got a letter from him? 
He's the best. 
I miss him oodles. 
And he likes noodles.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

they are so good to me

The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss and have found their way of the the depths.  These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.

---Elizabeth Kubler Ros

I am grateful for each and every beautiful person I have in my life. They teach me everyday, and give me strength everyday and they don't even know it.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

i have asked a thousand ways that [their] would take my pain away

Good News:  I finally got my holiday schedule at work today.
Bad News: I'm working all day thanksgiving.

Good News: School is back in session and its nice to have a routine again.
Bad News: School is back in session and I have a freaking routine again.

Good News: Mom went grocery shopping today.
Bad News: All of the purchased food requires assembly.

Good News: I finally bought new clothes.
Bad News: My closet is over stuffed again.

Good News: Thanks to a certain cute friend my camera bag will be done soon.
Bad News: Thanks to a lack of funding the additional lens space will be empty for quite sometime.

Good News: The weather is starting to cool down which means fall [my favorite season] is coming.
Bad News: After fall comes me hiking to the bus stop in two feet of snow.

Good News: I've been really good at staying on top of studying so far this semester.
Bad News: Its only been syllabus stuff in my classes and I can already feel myself winding down. :/

Good News:  I've been spending lots of time with my BFF sister-in-law lately.
Bad News:  With school starting I feel like thats coming to an end real quick.

Good News:  I have AWESOME crazy old ladies to play with at work!
Bad News:  They all have smalls and hubbys to take care of which totally cuts into our play time.

Good News: My missionaries start coming home in t - 21 weeks!

Good News: I haven't bought music on iTunes AT ALL this pay period.
Bad News: The list of songs I want is continuing on a second page.

Good News: I know that My Heavenly Father lives and is there to comfort and guide in times of need.
Bad News:  The events that lead to me feeling that so strongly this week.

Good News: I'm done with this now.
Bad News: I wrote way too much and now I have to be up in five hours.

Monday, August 15, 2011

anything but loud and nitty gritty

You can tell what your friends really think of you, by the men they set you up with.

Pshhht. Obviously my friends don't love me that much because Girl is still single. :)

In other news:

1 Day until Shaners Birthday.

2 weeks until School starts.

3 Months until my first wedding.

4 Shoots I've dragged the assistant to this week
two of them up the canyon. good sport gusy.

5 Missionaries to write.

6 months until my best friend gets home.

7 hours until I have to wake up.

8 months until something so fresh shows up.

9 outfits added to the wish list :/
(wish i didn't have so many bills so i could look cute list)

10 years since I've seen bean. :(
slight exaggeration. 17 days though.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

I shift shapes just to hide in this place

Good news. I survived my weekend in Perry :)

Oh. And J SQUARED got married.

Seriously it was a beautiful wedding. Come relive it with me.

Here is the mama and I waiting for Joshy and Jill to come out of the temple. They took forever. I think Joshy had to fix his make up. ;)

They're reception was an all out dance party! Seriously though!! Everyone was dancing and it was so much fun!! Plus there was a taco bar. Sick man.

Oops. Jill's hand may have accidentally slipped and gotten cake on Joshy's face.

Dancing. Still covered in cake. Thats why I love them.

I wish I would have gotten more pictures of the decorating. It was seriously so pretty. The reception was in a church cultural hall but you really couldnt tell. All the walls were covered and there was a sheer tent like ceiling strung with lights. It was gorgeous.

Made me for about one second think about not eloping, just so I could have a sick dance party like they did.

But nahhhh.

Friday, July 29, 2011

Gonna get married

Congratulations Mr. and Mrs. Joshy Antuna!!!

It was a beautiful day for a wedding.

I love J Squared.

Now I'm off to a taco bar and a candy buffet. Dance party comes later. Josh and Jill sure know how to party!!

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

oh you know you shine

I aspire to someday be the reason for a boy to smile.

Monday, July 18, 2011

just when I start to think they're right.

All of my brother carry similarities. 

Cam sounds like Shane.
Brett and Chubs could be twins with different hair colors
Brett and Cameron both work well with cars.
Shane and Cam can work their behinds off.
Shane and Brett both love a good joke.
Cameron and Colton both are talented in the Kitchen.
Shane and Brett are excellent loving fathers.
Cameron and Chubs are both more than willing to help someone in need.

And almost all of these qualities are qualities that Dad had too.

Turns out all peterson boys are alike.

This is one of the most recent pictures of my dad. 
Chubs and I were trying to talk him into taking us driving and he was laughing at us.
He found a pair of my large girly sunglasses laying on the desk behind him and threw them on.
We all got a few good laughs and I snapped a picture on my cell phone.

The other day Shane and I were out running errands. 
He was helping me go through junkyards to find a part for my car and I was taking him to doctors appointments.  While he was riding passenger in my car he found a pair of my big girly sunglasses.
Next thing I knew he had thrown on the glasses and started goofing around. 

I life my life with a lot of the same Peterson boys.

Thursday, June 30, 2011

and as i'm walking through the subway

This kid.

Gotta love him.

(isn't he darling? he gets home in 7 months ladies! Let me know if you're interested. I'll put in a good word.)

He is here

But before he left I sent him this

And the other day he sent me a picture of this